I started chemo a month ago.  I have made it through a third of my treatments, 2 rounds, 4 treatments.  And let me tell you it is not anything I could of imagined.   This past week has been rough, I’ve had a lot of nausea, body aches, and I miss my family being under one roof.  Some days I can’t help but think, “why?  Why now?  Why me?  Why our family?”.  Then I cry for a minute or two, if it’s any longer I get a headache and I don’t want to get dehydrated so I have to stop.  What I do know is that We will come out stronger, and with more love for each other and this life.   I am especially grateful for my Mom, my Brother and his wife, who have been able to help out so much, especially with the kids this past week.

Today has been a better day and I am hoping it will continue throughout the week.  I am so glad I get next week off.  One of my concerns this week was that my blood counts would be too low.  The only thing in my chemistry that was low today was my potassium, which means they gave me potassium through my IV port before administering chemo.  I was able to sleep again for a little bit, so that was nice to help pass some time.  While I was in treatment a lady, who came in for chemo could not receive it today because her counts were too low.  I wanted so bad to go give her a hug, you could just see how disappointed she was.  I have to remember, it happens and that could be me one of these days.

Now on to this sweet little guy  

He is still in the hospital.  He is fighting an infection and continues to spike fevers, he also tested positive for the rhino virus.  He had a Broviac cathether placed last week.  This is a central venous catheter that accesses the large vein that enters the heart.  They are using this to administer his medications.  Zane is being trained on the care and use of the line as he will have it when he does finally come home.  Zane sent me these pictures of him after the procedure was done.

He is still happy and plays with his toys.  Of course, he does pay attention to the door when nurses and Doctors come in.  He knows that is the way out!  Isaac is a fighter and he’ll get there, it’s just taking more time.

Thank you for all the sweet cheer cards, Zane has hung them all up in Isaac’s room!  Thanks to our amazing friend for taking the time to spend with Isaac at the hospital so Zane could come home and get some rest.  Zane knows he doesn’t have to be there ALL the time, but he knows what works best for this guy!